missing him

i wish with every fiber of my being that you were here with me. learning to walk. playing catch with your daddy. kissing your baby brother. seeing babies around the age you should be now physically hurts my heart and i imagine that it always will. why did they get to live and you didn't? is it crazy to miss someone this much who i was never even given the chance to know? i don't think so because you are a part of me. a part of us. a part of our family that will always be missing. i love you so much baby boy.